i’m trying to loosen my overactive planning brain from the clutches it has around this birth thing. i’m breathing. i’m letting out all those worries. you know the worries: it’s too cold to have a baby, having a baby hurts, my mom has already been here for ten days and still no baby, my husband is overwhelmed at school, on and on and on. i’m trying to seize the bliss that’s here in front of me.
i have a little hal who points to his chest and says “i hal” and runs through libraries and grocery stores looking for the letter K. i have a warm(ish) house full of family and food and belching suitcases. i have a baby inside me that isn’t too big and isn’t too small and isn’t quite ready (for whatever reason) to brave cleveland’s january. and this morning the sun came out bright and strong. and we’ll survive this waiting. that’s what rice krispie treats are for. (right?)
and thank you for your concern and encouragement. everybody likes to be loved.
good attitude. After holding a sad. mad. crying. baby for four hours last night I was silently wishing I could put her back inside my {still large} belly
in some ways its nice to know they are safe and warm and you can’t hear a sound from them when they are inside.
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sorry I didn’t know that it could turn my typing into a smile face, I had to try some other ones, but I guess those ones don’t work.
Tell your mom hello. You have one smart baby…she is already trying to wait until January in Cleveland is over!
Great attitude! Oh, and I love that you’ve been updating about this…I’ve been praying for you and checking every day to see if you’ve had the baby yet.
Yes, I too check every day (that and ask Damon if Joe was at school today) but haven’t wanted to be an anoying friend by calling to see if that baby was out yet. Thank goodness for a positive attitude (at least on cyber paper). I am standing by to help in any way needed. Hang in there…or maybe that isn’t the right sentiment. Hmm. Maybe you should not be competing with your sister on this one. I’m thinking about you and praying everything goes well.